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[03 Jul 2005|10:30am] |
Okay so Hi.
I'm bored.
The end.
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[12 Jun 2005|03:27pm] |
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Ok, so, its been an uber long time since the last update. Nothing has happened to me that is absolutely remarkable other than that I, Jennifer Ann, was in Aaron Flores's room. Thats right, mad skill. Ok, so, if you want to know why just know that it was nothing dirty in nature, simply that we know his nieghbors pretty well and one of them wanted to use Aarons bass so I went with his mother to go and get it. The end. Um, I'm riding this little morgan gelding named Dare now too! Yay for me!
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hi, this is actually adrianne, hacking into jennifer's acount because i'm sexy like that, but if i were her i would probably be saying something like,
moo, bock bock, llama llama, mufuahahaha, bock, moo,moo, DON'T EAT THE MANGO, DONT EAT THE MANGO!
and that's all
hahahahahaha
i love this job!
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[17 Apr 2005|05:09pm] |
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alyssa says:
#1 i don't hang out with her & lindsay at lunch
#2 i was being mean to lindsay
#3 i went out w/jeff and "messing" around with another guy while we were going out, then i dumped him, and though i love him, which i do, went out with another guy right away
#4 i was being mean about aaron even though i don't know him
me says:
to the first accusation,
you guys are so much closer to eachother than you were with me, and i was feeling left out, i thought that you didn't really like me or that you were somehow plotting against me, and i never really ditched you, you could have easily come u and sat with me, my friends did like you ya know.
2nd accusation:
the whole "nobody cares" was about the whining about zach hating you, but not about no one caring about you! and i don't really understang why you didn't just fix it, why did you keep on hanging out with them if they are so mean to you?! and i didn't really want to hear you complaining about it anymore, when i knew that you were perfectly capable of just saying, screw them and moving on. and why couldn't you just have gone home with someone else, why not brooke or somthing? i know you don't like her but maybe it would fix two problems if you tried to tolerate her a little but.
3rd accusation:
as far as, "messing" around, i told jeff everything that i did during the day, most of the stuff he didn't mind, and if he asked me to stop i did, period! and the whole going out too fast was actually unintended, i didn't know that he liked me. and i was truly trying to get over jeff even though it's not working, and why is it your fucking business anyways, you don't even like jeff you sit there and talk shit about him all the time, or atleast you did, but now the only reason that you talk to him is to tell him a bunch of god awful lies that he doesn't believe anyways!
4th accusation:
maybe i don't have the right to be mean, but if you actually gave me the cahnce to meet him i might be able to know him better! and i don't care who it is that he is cheating on, or with, he shouldn't be cheating in the first place! and the fact that you don't want him to meet me because you think that he will go for me and dump you is sort of iffy, that kind of says somthing about what kind of person you think he is, and what kind of person you think i am. and maybe you don't feel like that anymore, but in the last month or so of our friendship you didn't even offer for him to meet me like i was somehow undeserving of something that made you happy. and if you cant trust me with your boyfriend then maybe i shouldn't have trusted you with anything, but i did, i trusted you with a secret that was precious to me, and you went off and told someone that i don't even know. and that hurts my feelings, you of all people know that i am closed to people and that i don't let people into my personal life, but the fact of the matter is that you betrayed me, maybe when i said that i was mad at you i used the wrong emotion, i am just betrayed. and then to add insult to injury, a few days later i hear that someone tells people that i was fingered at school, which is a complete and total lie, if you are going to start something about me and you are that close to me then atleast say something that's true, so i don't know what i did, and i don't know who's in the wrong here, but whatever i did to piss you off here but i'm sorry... but as far as being friends with you again, this whole rumor thing has really pissed me off, if it's not true then i might be willing to try, but if you actually did say that, then were done!
have a good rest of the weekend and i will see you on monday, i guess..
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[28 Mar 2005|12:07am] |
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Ok well long time no update, so now for the story of my life in the past, oh...how long has it been? A very long time. Lets leave it at that.
Hm, well...Jeff accused me of cheating on him with Andrew which I didn't because that is the dumbest thing I have ever heard anyone even think of much less speak out loud, but I got all hurt and then pissed off and then confused so I broke up with him. It only gets better, really. So, then, the next day, I was feeling ok I suppose, until Tucker came up and gave me the daily note. (btw, I'm sorry for telling you no one cared, Lindsey, I really did, its just I had way bigger problems than Zach being a fat ass at the moment) Ok, so it was all moppy and made me feel kinda bad but then I turned the last page and whoa holy shit. Signed, in very big and scarlet letters, was "I love you" in none other than blood. So Lindsey and Alyssa and Megan were looking at it in Algebra and the crackwhore teacher took it, and I screamed at him to give it back but nooo would he, I don't think so. So I sat there and cried for about an hour before I stopped and went to cope with my issues in a private place.(this sounds really happy, doesn't it? Well, its not) I blamed myself for it and still do, actually. So, then, I go home, and Adrianne left me this message about my phycho and how his chest hurt and he was coughing up blood because he had gone on another drug spree and I sat down on the kitchen floor and cried for about, oh, and hour and a half before I got up and cried for another hour or two locked up in my room. Things around there smoothed out alright, I suppose, after awhile.
And yesterday I went to go spend the night at Adriannes house because YESSSS I am not grounded anymore, and we had this really neato but sad conversation at 1 in the morning, about Alyssa and Aaron(which is pissing me off but we won't go there) and me and Jello and David and Da Bagel and all kinds of other neat things. So I cried and she cried and I straightened lights and the end. So easter rolls around and it is about 9:45 o'clock when Adrianne goes, "You really should go back out with Jeff" and I was all, hand me the phone, so she does. I and the phycho have now been going out for about 2 hours, 12 minutes, and some odd seconds. *cheer* Ok, I think I am done now. Have a nice day.(or night...)
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[19 Feb 2005|11:50pm] |
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This may be broken up by tears or silence, as I don't really know what to do and I don't even know what I want. All I know is that I need to figure out where I am. I believe the way to start this of is with these words, I love you. And I do. With all of my heart, body, soul...anything I could give to you I would so give happily with an undying devotion that stands even now as I speak into your answering machine. Its hard, being with someone that I never get to see, I'm sure you feel the same way, but I'm torn in two - to stay with you or to wait for those years when I can spend each and every waking moment with you, filling the space before those moments with what I hope to be...something somewhat like what we have.Even if I do break up with you in the end, I still want to talk to you, I still want to love you. Because you, my love, is what I live for and smile for and breath for. You hold my heart and always will. I'm not breaking up with you yet...I'm not ready for that, I'm not even sure if thats what I'm looking for by even telling you this. Maybe I'm going insane...I think I'm just going to go now, but, I love you, no matter what happens. Always remember that.
Alyssa, don't tell him, please? Just, let me figure this out and if I want to do it or not, ok?
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[18 Feb 2005|03:37pm] |
I'm still grounded off of the computer, I'm just at Adriannes so mufuwahaha fucking nazis. Ok, sexy ass vampire kid now.
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[08 Feb 2005|03:26pm] |
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Why not tell the other half? Ok, some of you (most of you who will read this) already know about it, but for the rest of you people left in the dark who most likely wouldn't be even if I don't tell you, I cut myself. There, I said it. Are you guys happy now? Probably not. Shame I have no camara or I could put the living proof up here for you, but I do and I hate myself for it. I hate myself for a lot of reasons but we won't continue on here. I did it for the first time in about a month last night, and ask anyone who has seen it, its not pretty and its not cute and it sure as hell isn't something I should be fond of and I'm not. I just spent the past 45 minutes or so crying my eyes out and spilling all the bullshit that I've kept bottled up for the past four months to complete strangers, so even if I wasn't grounded off the phone, I wouldn't want to talk to anyone anyways. Don't ask me if you can see tomorrow, because I will destroy you with my bare hands. Don't ask who told on me - I know and choose not to say. How bad was it you ask? 12 lovely x marks in a bright and brilliant red. Its hideous and everytime I look at it I want to throw up. I won't be in class tomorrow morning for the first 20 minutes or so, as I have to go back up to the counselors and talk to the enemy again, but thats ok I suppose, as Algebra sucks anywho. Megan gave Tucker a note to give to Jeff telling him too, so not only is my life ruined at school but also with my boyfriend, who may I add I love more than anything on this god damned planet, and the only person who didn't think I was a suicidal phycho path(thanks meg). How the hell am I going to explain that to him? Ok...I'm just going to stop before I puke up my insides or kill someone. Hope you enjoyed my rendetion of the Jennifer is more fucked than any of you speech.
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and I think I'm going to make a new screen name, I'm growing bored of this one...
I want to get the hell out of this house.
The hell away from them.
And the hell closer to you.
^I may have something there...*frolicks off in poetic ecstacy*
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| An update on the nazis who rule my life... |
[07 Feb 2005|06:29pm] |
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Grr...I have been grounded from the phone, as I was talking to Jeff and was caught...damn nazi.
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( quizzes/surveys )
I love doing these stupid little survey things, they make me happy inside.
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| In Texas... |
[05 Feb 2005|02:47am] |
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Weehee in the hell hole known as Ft. Worth right now, which actually isn't so bad. Super fast computer, uber nice people, and AIM. Yay! So, talk to me people. Wow, its almost three in the morning. That is amazing.
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[03 Feb 2005|04:59pm] |
love is a funeral of hearts-and an ode to all cruelty-when the angels cry blood on flowers of evil in bloom-The funeral of hearts-And a plea for mercy-When love is a gun-Separating me from you-She was the sun Shining upon-The tomb of your hopes and dreams so frail -He was the moon-Painting you With it's glow so vulnerable and pale-Love's the funeral of hearts-And an ode for cruelty-When angels cry blood-On flowers of evil in bloom-The funeral of hearts-And a plea for mercy-When love is a gun-Separating me from you-She was the wind, carrying in All the troubles and fears you've for years tried to forget-He was the fire, restless and wild-And you were like a moth to that flame-The heretic seal beyond divine-A prayer to a god who's deaf and blind-The last rites for souls on fire-Three little words and a question why-Love's the funeral of hearts-And an ode for cruelty-When angels cry blood-On flowers of evil in bloom-The funeral of hearts-And a plea for mercy-When love is a gun-Separating me from you
Hey Lindsey, you should burn me that song, its purdyful
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Take the quiz: "What Cutter Fits You Best"
Love The Pain
your kinda like me you cut for pain you love the pain and blood yay you
Haha kinda scary, but ok. Alrighty, so, I fell down in drama today. And the whole class saw. And I went kerbang on the tile, it hurt pretty good. By the way Alyssa, this is a pretty good cd. Lindsey gave an awesome speech today in Algebra! *huggles her* and then, um...matt didn't get off the bus today like he said he would. He always tells me these things and never does them. *sigh* oh well, I have Jeff.
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Diego writes:
i said nothing impolite to her today
okay but seriously i do think alyssa is an mtv mainstream poser or maybe not the mtv mainstream part but i do think she is a poser. and she will admit eventually, I know what its like to be like her. well not exactly but somewhere near i mean she's just trying to fit in or something. i tried to be like joseph. but now i realize that thats stupid. she should just be herself and find her own damn music.
My Reply:
She does listen to her own music, ok? She likes what she likes, and it doesn’t matter if me and Lindsey turned her on to it, alright? Half the music you idiots listen to you got from one another. And god damn Diego, if anyone is a poser it isn’t her its me, ok? Just shut up about it, your only pissing people off and hurting they’re feelings. And “her own damn music” happens to be a lot of the stuff me and Linds like too, if she was really trying to fit in she’d be a huge HIM fan and be obsessed with Dashboard Confessional. She doesn’t like either of the bands, so tell me, Diego, how the hell is she trying to fit in with us if she doesn’t like either of our favorite bands? You guys all need to grow up and stop criticizing people based on how they dress or what music they listen to or even as far as to who they hang out with. Its getting annoying all this bull that’s firing back and forth between everyone, so hows about you boys just shut up and instead of finding faults in other people, fix the ones with yourselves. It sounds a lot more productive to me.
And I don’t care if you said nothing impolite to her today, it doesn’t matter what goes on during school you will still go home, get on the computer, and say malicious things about her because you feel like it.
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[02 Feb 2005|04:58pm] |
| You scored as I caught Fire. I Caught Fire - you love love. What can we say? My favorite song off of In Love and Death.
I caught Fire | | 90% | Blue and Yellow | | 70% | I'm a Fake | | 70% | Poetic Tragedy | | 65% | All that I've Got | | 60% | </td>
Which the Used song are you?
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